The meltdown zone.

I have always thought of myself as a strong women. Growing up I have always heard God only gives you what you can handle and no more. That with his help you can accompolish anything. Might not be exactly what you would have thought the result should be but what he feels that it needs to be. This year we have set certain goals for us as a family and also as a business. We wanted to expand the outside kennels to give the puppies plenty of room to roam. We wanted to redo our floor downstairs. Well for some reason my hubby has decided that we would do everything at one time. So I currently have partial finished kennels outside and a kitchen that is barely usable. On top of this is baseball season in which I am home maybe one night a week. Jacob is doing karate and now has decided to start back up with his guitar lessons. Because of the numerous calls/emails we decided that it was time to up the litters that we are having. This is on top of both of us working a 40 hour week. Well my business recently had layoffs. I am lucky that my job was not eliminated but the workload that I have now is almost unbearable. I personally feel that I have reached the melt down zone. Friday was my 41st birthday. My birthday present to myself was a day of nothing. No work, no running kids nothing. I watched a little tv, layed in bed reading a book. I did go out with my parents to eat. I can honestly say it was the best birthday I have had. Do I feel guilty that I took 1 day of the whole year to be selfish. Yes but also know that I needed it.

I feel alittle recharged so that now I can start yet another week of running and worrying and working. I know that at the end of the summer not only will I look back and ask where did it go, but I will also look back and the many goals that we have reached this year. It will be just between us that the many goals were reached at almost the same time. I know normaly people would do one at a time. but hey who has ever said I am normal. So now off to my upside down kitchen overlooking my partial kennels. washing the baseball uniform for next week. I love my life